Today I just want to blog. No list, no challenges, just a little truth. Like I have said before I have many mentors. Some I have never even met. That being said, I am a part of a great online community and through this Facebook group whether she knows it or not she has become one of my mentors. Meaning I learn a lot from her that helps me on this long and sometimes overwhelming journey. So let’s just call her Ms. A that is circled by Light.
Well Ms. A really exposed the realness of being human through one of her YouTube posts and it really registered with me especially as a Christian. Sometimes I think people cannot relate to us Christians because we are not real. Yes, we have an undeniable joy and faith that can bring us through anything but that does not mean the struggle is not real!
As a single woman, with no siblings, only one parent still living, starting a business, working at least 8 hours a day at a 9 to 5, who is in ministry, who battles sickness, mishaps, financial pressure…let me tell you the struggle is real lol. Don’t get me wrong this is not my pity party. I am just trying to prove the point that no one knows the battles I face every day. Not that I should go around spewing out all of my issues.
But when I walk around like nothing is ever wrong and on the inside I am about to break it gets to a point that what I am portraying just isn’t real. Transparency is a must! It is ok to say, you know sometimes I don’t want to blog or post a video, or say something inspiring on ‘the empowerment circle’. It is ok to say, sometimes I don’t want to read the bible. Sometimes I don’t want to pray. Sometimes I don’t want to go to church. Sometimes I don’t want to serve. Sometimes this walk that I have been called to is hard and sometimes I just don’t feel like doing it. Sometimes I am really sad. Sometimes I cry. Sometimes I yell. Sometimes I am scared. Sometimes I say things I shouldn’t.
Sometimes I do these things because all the time I am human. Even as entrepreneurs we act like working 12 hours a day to get a business started is piece of cake. It’s not! Especially if you are still working a 9 to 5. Be honest and say hey I am tired. I am tired, beat, exhausted, sleepy, cranky, irritable and at times I just sleep for hours though I probably feel guilty about it.
And though sometimes this is my reality. Because I am constantly immersing myself in God’s word, because I am constantly using the very tools that I post here, or video about, or Facebook about, because I surround myself with people that can and will pour into me; I am able to keep going. I am able to access those tools, scriptures and techniques so that I will not get weary and I will not faint.
Yeah you can say that the list and the challenges, and the motivational quotes are great writing, maybe a nice read. But what they are is your way to keep going, to be better, to be blessed.
I actually didn’t know that until I was going through a particularly hard time. A hard time that would have crushed me a few years ago. But I have grown! I have grown in God. I have grown in his principles! Following God just isn’t so that you can get into heaven. It is so that you can make it in this world!
I have been really transparent today even venerable so that you may see the importance of taking the steps to improve your life and we as Christians owe it to people to be transparent. To say hey I am not perfect but it is through Jesus that I can be who see in front of you. Because you don’t see my brokenness because through him I am made whole. It is through Jesus that you witness me having joy in pain, peace in the storm, energy when I am tired, strength when I am weak.
It is only that I have put in the work to be able to be who I am today. So I implore you to change the habits, make the schedules, write the visions, have the plan, set the goals, read your bible, pray, fellowship, build your faith, transform! Because though I go through a lot trust me when I tell you I am ever joyful, never alone, and always blessed.
Ok that is it! Be blessed see you next time!